"Rachael Kilgour"
Released December of 2008
1. Bluebird
2. Tell Me Washington
3. Go
4. Baby, Maybe
5. Cheap Grace
6. Here I Am
7. Cheat and Lie
8. Sun's Going Down
9. Sorry
10. Passion and Forgiveness
11. Adeline
12. Sing Out
BLUEBIRD
I heard you were cute as a button
When you came all the sudden
On an April day
How the ice gave way
And spring was never the same
When you smiled and you tamed her
Brought her to her knees
Had her begging please
Blue eyed bluebird
Welcome to this new world
You learned to walk you learned to sing
And collect secret things in your magic box
Mermaid tears and treasure rocks
And your pants are never long enough
By the time I came along
Into this dream you cast
You were growing fast
Blue-eyed bluebird
This is such a new world to me
Of all the plans we make
All the chances we take
This was no mistake
Though I haven’t been here from the start
Still you stole my heart
And now you tell me all your worries
And you write me all those stories
You let me know when I am wrong
Learn the words to all my songs
And your mom and I will marry
It will be just like a fairytale
But not the Cinderella kind
I’ll be yours and you’ll be mine
And we’ll learn to share in time
Of all the plans we make
All the chances we take
This was no mistake
Though I haven’t been here from the start
Still you stole my heart
My little bluebird
Our little bluebird
Sweet little bluebird
TELL ME WASHINGTON
I’ve heard whispers in town
That you’ve been running around
That you’ve been lying and cheating
And laying the money down
Laying it down, while you’re laying her down
You say come on baby can’t you see?
You’re the luckiest girl that could ever be
I give you what you want
I give you what you need
What I need? I don’t think you know what I need
Chorus:
So tell me Washington do you love me?
In your big White House are you thinking of me?
No.
You bring home the roses and gold
When all I want is someone to hold
When all I want is to know
That you’re true
Tell me your true
It’s the least you could do
And now here I am again sitting at home
Here I am once more sitting alone
Waiting on the ring of the telephone
But we don’t talk anymore
Baby how come we don’t talk anymore
Chorus
You say, come on baby you know you’re free
But I’ve seen the way you look at me
I caught your eyes when I disagreed
You call that free?
That’s not what I see
Chorus
How about the poor and the hungry
The ones you leave for your power and your money
You’d better keep me happy so I won’t see
Ohhhh,
Chorus
GO GO
I see you most every day
Coasting along, I watch you pave the way
You laugh out loud but then you cry all alone
Your teardrops falling down in Morse code
Singing “take me home, take me home, take me home
I will merge into your lane
And you will never, never be the same
Nothing they can say, nothing anyone can do
That’s gonna keep me from taking this ride with you
We roll all night and we roll all day
Never running out of something smart to say
But you change your mind now; you turn me down
When tires cry I turn the sound round and round
And round, round and round
You’re slowing down the speed now so slow, slow
Well this isn’t a construction zone as far as I know
The green light gives way to red
Tell me baby; tell me was it something I said
Go go, go go, go go again
Here we go go, go go, go go again
Let’s go go, go go, go go and then
C’mon let’s go go, go go, again
The moment’s gone now, it’s past
It’s for the best you say,
You know it never would have lasted
What am I to do now, take to the road or take you to bed
We never covered this in drivers ed
But I will merge into your lane
And you will never, never be the same
And you don’t have to want me
No you don’t have to say please
All you’ve gotta do is give me the keys
Go go, go go, go go again
Let’s go go, go go, go go again
Here we go go, go go, go go again
Let’s go again
BABY MAYBE
You're such a chicken
You don't have the guts
I knew I was too good
And you knew you were nuts
Anyone could have seen it
Except maybe me
There's more truth in a lie
Than there's love in your eyes
And I couldn't believe it
CHORUS:
I didn't want you then
And I don't want you now
Your trouble with money
Your crushes, oh honey
I'm too smart for you anyhow
You tell me to act my age
Well baby, maybe
You should have played nice
You should have thought twice
Before messing with me
I'm not so foolish
At least I knew to hold back
Everyone knew it was you dear
Riding your one-way track
You can move across the country
And look deep in her eyes
You can play all your tricks
And hope she can't resist
But pretty soon she's gonna realize
CHORUS
You hurt me, you made me cry
But I'll use you until the day I die
A songwriters only heartache
Might just be your biggest mistake
I'll bet you wish you could take it all back now
So don't say that I'm pretty
No, don't tell me I'm hot
'Cause I knew it already
Yeah, I get that a lot
And if you had just loved me
The way I thought I loved you...
Well thank God you were blind
And I made up my mind to be happy without you
CHEAP GRACE
A movie star gives millions
To start up her own charity
Flies out to Uganda
And poses with a starving child
And then in her Oscar gown,
Diamond studded to the floor
She looks just like and angel
But heaven knows she could give more
Oh we’re all looking for some cheap grace
We’re all getting high on the same sweet taste
A pat on our backs, our chins held in the air
Trying to pretend like we’re trying to care
I dump my trash off at the Goodwill
And claim it on my taxes
And when the return comes in the mail
I’ll go and buy a pair of jeans
As if maybe I am worthy
Maybe mediocre passes
As if maybe I’m the smart one
In this world of dumb asses
But I’m just looking for my cheap grace
I’m just getting high on the same sweet taste
A pat on my back, my chin held to the sky
Trying to pretend like I’m trying to try
Oh there’s enough by far we just never learned to share
Now we can’t go sticking band-aids on the wounds too deep to bear
Ohhh….
So give a pack of ramen noodles
To the local food drive
A pocket of change to the woman on the street
But could you let her live in your house?
Would you give up your own coat?
Can we question how we got here
While they shove it down our throats?
Oh I’m sick and tired of this cheap grace
I’m sick of being lucky in the first place
And yes, we’re only human
And we’ve got a lot to learn
That doesn’t mean we shouldn’t try our best
To make this world turn around
HERE I AM
I’ve walked for miles, walked for smiles
Walked with you
Talked of stars and dreams
Love and sex and ice cream
Talked every talk 'til I was dizzy and confused
And you give so easily
It must be hard to wait on me
Here I am, here I am
Opened wide
Here I am
Ready to take you inside of me
And you leave me dizzy
Leave me rolling dice
But isn’t it nice
And I watched you sleep
Rocked in the deep of the night
I learned your lips from a distance
Learned by sight
Watched your eyes race back and forth
Your dreams flash side to side
And still I don’t know what I want from this
Still I don’t know your kiss
But here I am, here I am
Open wide
Here I am
Ready to take you inside of me
And you leave me dizzy
Leave me thinking twice
But isn’t it nice?
This is all new, this
Me looking at you, this
Me looking for you in every room
Not that I’m complaining
I’m just saying, yeah, I’m just saying
And I tried to lie, tried getting by
Holding back before
I tried to frame it, tried to name it
But this is something more
This I have no words for
Oh
Here I am, here I am
Open wide
Here I am
Ready to take you inside of me
Here I am
With nothing to hide
And isn’t it nice?
Isn’t it nice?
Isn’t this nice?
CHEAT AND LIE
When I can’t sleep you’re the dream I miss
Your patient eyes and the sweet of your kiss
And at the end of the day if there’s one thing I need it’s this
‘Cause when the moon tucks in the sun
And whispers goodnight ‘til the morning comes
And the stars come out, my mind it starts to run
With my imagination
Chorus:
Oh I’m not tired, but I’ll close my eyes
I’d count sheep for the rest of my life
I would cheat and lie to see you one more time
And when the night wind sings her song
I’m dancing with you all evening long
Who’d have thought I could be this far gone
For a dream? Like silhouettes
The taste of your name on my weary lips
When did sleepers’ fates start placing bets?
Well, I forget
Chorus
But now when I wake up in the early morn
I get to wishing that I’d never been born
I’ve got reason to be forlorn
Because the night led me on
And broke my heart in two at dawn
Now the girl of my dreams is gone
But not for long
Chorus
SUN'S GOING DOWN
The sun's going down now
She's going under
And I can still feel her breathing
At my shoulder
I rest my eyes and I rest my bones
I rest my heart oh, I rest alone
Arresting thoughts now to slumber be
But where's the rest, the rest of me?
I spin my chair around 'til I'm good and dizzy
Sip my tea slow like and easy
Promised focus on these things I see
More to write means the more to be
Take time to walk now, take time to read
Time to cry, time to bleed
And you come on waltzing now through my mind
You come on waltzing most all the time
I know your eyes and I know your smile
I know your lies and all the while
I know I still have yet to let you see
to know, to know me
SORRY
When every word you say’s a memory
A teardrop rolling down my cheek
It’s like you come around to remind me
I’ve got to learn to walk on my own two feet
‘Cause getting here was just one small easy step
But getting there is gonna be hard
While my neighbors pilot airplanes
I still can’t get out of our backyard
Chorus:
I’m sorry for the rain
Sorry for the pain it cost us
I’m sorry for the way
Romance gets lost in a crowd
I’m sorry we were young
Sorry for the songs that went unsung
But I’m not sorry
For giving my love
I think I knew I’d leave you right from the start
That’s why I promised to stay
It’s funny how we all try and fool our hearts
While they just look the other way
Just look the other way
But I’ve always been good at holding on tight
I’m not much for letting go
No I’m not much for the cruel
Even if it’s true you know
You know
Chorus
PASSION AND FORGIVENESS
On the way out the front door
I kissed my grandma on the cheek
And it was easy cause she’s sweet
And I know she loves me
But love is more than that
Love is lovin’ those that don’t love you back
Loving the ones that knock you off track
And the one’s that have hurt you
When my wife’s ex-husband
Tells the judge that she’s doing things wrong
Like he doesn’t know she’s the worlds-best mom
And she would give anything
And then her daughter turns to us to say
“Isn’t he strong and isn’t he brave”
we know that yes, her dad is great
and she’s lucky to have him
we’re gonna love him no matter what
Chorus:
I believe it when I see it
That this life is more than keeping score
And it’s harder than I thought before
But I know now I want nothing less
Than passion and forgiveness
Passion and forgiveness
The woman who betrayed you
And the jerk who got you fired
The teenage punks who slashed your tires
Are they really worth it?
All this anger and upset?
And if a man came to your town
If he came and hurt your little girl
Could you go and visit him in jail?
Could you find a reason
To love and forgive him?
Chorus
When you make it up to heaven
Who do you expect to see
Would you be surprised if you found me there
Standing beside you
Or how ‘bout the ones that flew the planes
The day the towers came crashing down?
Or maybe the Saddam Hussein and the President
With little angel wings and shiny golden crowns?
Can I dare to pray for peace
For the drunk who holds the keys
For the soldiers overseas
And in my own back yard
For the man who thinks he’s right
To kick his dog and beat his wife
For the suicide bombs, the prayers gone wrong
Chorus
ADELINE
My throat is sore from the night before oh
From the night before
Up singing with you ‘til quarter to two or
Maybe quarter to four, was it quarter to four?
But see I don’t need so much sleep now
And I’ve got no schedule to keep anyhow
But they won’t understand
Won’t understand this plan
No they won’t understand
This plan we never planned
‘Cause only you and I know
Where you and I stand oh
Hand to hand
Now a giggle turns laugh as I lie on my back oh
As I lie on my back
A giggle turns laugh turns asthma attack
And you laugh right back
You laugh right back
And they say we move to fast
Yeah, they say the laughs will pass us by
But they don’t understand
Don’t understand this plan
No they don’t understand
This plan we never planned
‘Cause only you and I know
Where you and I stand oh
Hand to hand
But there’s always a risk when you take to the dance floor
We could always slip, or get more than we asked for
But I think it’s worth it, and you think it’s worth it
And they’ll think it’s worth it
Just give ‘em time, Adeline
Now my hand on your hip, your lips to my lips oh
Lips to my lips
Who thought of this, this movie star kiss?
Who thought of this, all that I missed before?
Oh, they’ll understand, understand this plan
Soon they’ll understand this plan we never planned
‘Cause only you and I know where you and I stand
And you and I’ll show where you and I stand oh
Hand to hand
SING OUT
I don't know you
And you don't know me
At times it feels like we're as different
As different could be
By our love, by our age
By our skin and by our faith
By the time we take
By our sleep by our wake
Chorus:
But we can sing out together
Out of joy or out of pain
We can beg for forgiveness
We can beg for the rain
Over miles and through our trials
Through generations strong
We are held together by one song
I can run, I cannot walk
I'm the one you heard them talk about
I am hungry, I am fed
I'm behind and I'm ahead
I don't speak your tongue
I am old, I am young
I am being I have been
I'm the start and I'm the end
CHORUS
No I don't know you
And you don't know me
But can't we reach out,
Maybe try and help each other see
'Cause whether woman, man or child
We all play this game a while
We all cry the same tears
We all laugh the same smile
CHORUS